Avoiding the drama triangle
After months of dragging me back into his drama, 'daddy' turned up in my chat mugging me off again. Trying to make me look like a stalker. It's funny really. I have acquired two serious stalkers. Who have harassed me with the intention to incite my suicide for three years. But they are both that sad they need to manufacture lies and create drama in order to make it appear, as if I would actually stalk them. Luckily I know I have poor attachments and don't know what love is and that's what makes me vulnerable to being manipulated by love bombers, trolls and those who have to catfish through lack of confidence. It's not anything for me to be ashamed of. Every child should get healthy attachments during development but not every parent knows how to meet them needs. Normally though their own trauma. So I don't blame anyone. That's my strength. I see that people only bully others online through their own low self-esteem. I accept that I never had anything so coming online was never a guarantee to do well and have a better life. Maybe I am just here to highlight the bad behaviours of people so they can be dealt with. If I am being real I don't like keeping people around me because I can't be bothered with the drama they bring. That's why I don't really see anyone. I can't be doing with people and their problems and the headaches they give me. I am happy living in my own little world and I don't want to talk about anything that has happened anymore, because it's not worth the space in my head. Things only have as much value as you let them have and I choose not to get involved with the chaos that is around me. So I need to take another break of TikTok because it's BORING now. I don't like the people who have backstage access there because they have just used me for years. I haven't been able to have any support; in the chat, in likes or in gifts for years so it's pointless giving them my time anymore. They can have their platform with their discords and their manipulation and their evil head games., where they treat human life as commodities. I don't want in. I need to just write a list of all the bad shit that has happened since I got there and I need to read it every time I think about doing a LIVE. This is why I quit last time, because they don't deserve to be blessed with my presence. I might get too attached to people but I am fucking brilliant at cutting people off. I just don't really care about anything or anyone. Just Bambi. Obviously I do care about family but even that's fucked up. All my life I have been threatened with services and if the person I thought I cared about is going to join in on that, then fuck him. He doesn't mean shit.