Learning to be humble
It's ok to be wrong. I mean it's not normal to be wrong on such a grand scale. But hey hoe. Shit happens. I couldn't predict that I was going to be bombarded the way I was when I came online. But I don't agree with crying about how I have been exploited by everyone. Yes it is savage what happened to me. The amount of creators who jumped on the bandwagon of hate and sent their thousands of mindless sheep for me, was disgusting. But, I have a massive heart and I am full of forgiveness. As long as them people have learnt from their mistakes then I forgive them all. Obviously there is a couple of exceptions of people I won't forgive. It's not that I will hold on to hate but not everyone deserves my forgiveness. So any people I knew prior to TikTok who got involved in the hate campaign can fuck straight off. They only did that for clout and they made the whole situation worse. They should have stepped in and helped me. They should have been loyal. But instead they fuelled the fire and probably made things a million times worse. My worst PTSD comes from the carer and her family so for that I never want to know them again. All my friends who sat back and watched through gritted teeth as I was nearly bullied out of life. They have no space in my life anymore as I want to leave room for new people. But everyone who just came across me on TikTok and got sucked in to the whirl-wind of madness. I forgive you completely. I understand. The internet has been unregulated and self-regulated by users since it came into play and things just got out of hand. Yes I shouldn't have acted how I did but I was being gaslit by everyone and we all have something to learn here. But now we are past the madness and I have broken the psychosis, which was triggered by the whole catalogue of events, I don't want to carry any bad feeling for anyone that 'exposed' me and even those who made deep fakes. Whatever. I will let it go. But the others need to consider the impact of spreading misinformation, because no-one deserves to go through what I have and something needs to change. Finally, we all need to practice self-forgiveness more because as humans we all fuck up. It's just the way life goes. We fuck up, we learn and then we evolve. But if we have platforms, we have a duty to be humble and be good role models and admit when we fuck up, so our followers know when we got it wrong.