Don't let yourself get sucked in to the digital rabbit hole designed to distract you from progress.
Even though I am REWIRED now. It is still so easy to let myself be sucked back into the addiction of LIVE streaming. But I have to be mindful and remember to keep myself rooted in reality. Away from my devices. If I truly want to be able to succeed and overcome the adversity I have been dealt. I need to remember that life is all about balance and to achieve balance daily we need to have some plan, some kind of control over how we spend our time and how productive we choose to be. So today I published my REWIRED website. I decided to take the plunge and actually start making myself useful. To stop waiting for some knight in shining armour to rescue me. Instead I need to rescue myself and take as many people as I can with me. I don't think that anyone online really cared about me. That's why they all let me be abused day in day out and no-one stepped in to save me. They all just decided to step back and allow the online witch hunt. Most of the people got involved at some point too. So it's stupid me letting myself believe that any 'daddy' was in the background supporting the whole time. People have supported for a minute but then they have always had to step back and crack on with their own lives because my 'drama' was just too much. So in reality, I need to be giving myself a pat on the back and thanking myself for never giving up on me. Nobody else. The only way I have managed to survive everything is by working my spicy sites and although I do enjoy that at times, it makes me sad to think that some people have enjoyed seeing me exploit myself to keep mine and Bambi's heads above water. Today was a day of waking up properly. Seeing that I need to get out of this on my own and only with Bambi. No-one deserves to share my success. Yes I am grateful we can draw a line under the drama and I won't be carrying it on. But I don't need to feel safe with a man. I am safe on my own and I can do this, without anyone propping me up.